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Act Your Age
04:49
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September of my 27th year, is it now, did I do it, am I finally here?
In a brownstone townhouse on the upper west side
In a roofdeck duplex with the love of my life
I start work in about a month at a big law firm with a real income
I'm very happy I can settle down,
and do some wedding planning on the weekends now
But there's a part of me that's not quite sold
There's a voice in the back saying, "Grant, you got old"
It's been saying the same thing for half of my life
But days pass and it sounds more right each time 'cause
But when I look back on my too-brief youth
There's no jumps in pools from on top of the roof
No parties popped off with my parents out of town
And no running from the cops when they shut us down
And in the morning with a pounding head,
didn't wake to strange faces on the other side of bed
I made mostly good decisions for most of my life
And now I'm finally the old guy that I've acted like
Yeah, but now I think I really don't mind
Cause I'm sick of being scared of the passage of time
Right now I'm older than I've ever been
But I'm younger than I'll ever be again, and
If that's what you complain about
then it might not ever change
No your life won't stay the same
It'll just get better in a different way (if you act your age)
I used to want be a rapper,
Now I'm glad it didn't happen, cause crafting another grant would be a hassle
And it's taken so long to be glad with the one I have
That I can't second guess and I can't look back
Cause I don't mind that the kids like music that I don't really understand
And on the lower east side at night I feel like a chaperone at a middle school dance
So i'ma spend the weekends in my worn out vans
Until I go to work in dress shirts and pants
Stop calling myself a kid like a pop punk band
Cause if I go to bed at ten I'm an adult man and
Cause this is what I'm hoping
To lose the self loathing and get a sense of self that's closer to those who know me
Stead of focused on the old me
And finally get control of the adult life that I'm holding
I used to hope that I would be something
Some kind of loft living artist with a lip piercing
Now I don't want the same things from when I was a teen
And that's really really really really not a bad thing
I got friends who got married
I got friends who got kids
I got friends who got neither
Because they just wanna live
I'm about to get married
I got plans to have kids
And I'm so excited for both of those
Because I just wanna live
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Oh baby baby you bring me so much joy
I really feel like such a lucky boy
But you've got a great job and I'm unemployed
So every morning I watch you go
I feel like a puppy left alone in the house
I run around in circles to tire myself out
But when you get back I damn near knock you down
I'm so happy that you're home
I love you my dear
And I'm so sincere
I know you've got a lot of desk work
So baby no pressure
But I love it when you're here
When you talk about tax law, baby, my eyes just sort of glaze
Cause half the time I don't get half of what you say
But if I try hard to follow, oh I end up so amazed
'Cause your job is complicated, but I'm learning
You know all these things I'll never understand
You're so much smarter than I ever am
Oh please don't leave me for the next bracket of man
The kind who knows how to talk about inversions
I love you my dear
And I'm so sincere
I know you've got a lot of desk work
So baby no pressure
But I love it when you're here
I know you've got a lot of work to do
So stay in the office as long as you need to
I promise that I won't bother you
If you come on home, I'll leave you alone
Well probably not
Lazy weekend, barely made it to Times Square
And came home and watched the whole season of Transparent
And I was half dead the whole time but it should have been apparent
I was having the best day ever
Cause if I had to spend the whole month of October
On the couch next to you with the same hangover
In the end I'd just be sad that it's over
Cause I kind of want to do that forever
I love you my dear
And I'm so sincere
I know you've got a lot of desk work
So baby no pressure
But I love it when you're here
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Maine
05:03
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You're in the back seat driving
I'm in the front signing and
it's such a funny game
you've got a perfect smile and
I'll keep on trying to see it again
make you laugh all day
we could stay up late at night
listening to sad music
i think i've found someone i like
i wanna be your friend
we start to talk more often
make gummi bears in vodka
i wanna call you mind
i see you in the hallways
you act so weird and all i think
that i dont think i mind
if we stay up late at night
the night'll never end
i still feel the butterflies
i'm glad i let you in
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Younger
04:03
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Darling I don't like to see you broke and beaten down
Cause we've climbed so high to be here to get lost among the clouds
You had the greatest dreams at seventeen and now you're barely sleeping
But I know we dreamed the same dreams once and we can dream again
I'll never let you go
I wanna hold you tight
I wanna let you know
That it'll be all right
I wanna help you love like we're younger
Hope like we're younger
Live like we're younger
And love like we're young again
Lying on the ground and looking face-up at the sky
Doesn't do the things for clarity the movies say it might
But hanging out in parking lots did more than pass the evenings
Oh the promise that arrived with every night, alive
I'll never give you up
I wanna kiss your face
I wanna feel that rush
I wanna be okay
If you can help me love like we're younger
Hope like we're younger
Live like we're younger
And love like we're young again
Remember the
The future was the future
Remember the things that we were going to do
Remember the meaning in words and motions
Oh I want to do it all again, but this time with you
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Next To You
04:28
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I've been trying to find the best words
Like an empty page
of a greeting card
Start at the end and working backward
To the best place
Where you're sleeping already
I can never close my eyes
So I think about what you're dreaming about
In the morning I'll be tired
But I'll be dreaming about you
I want to be next to you
And I am next to you
The on-demand page on the TV
think it broke again
But I don't want to get out of bed
So I've been staring at the ceiling
As you're breathing
And I like this instead
And I'll try to wake up
When you walk in
In your work clothes all dressed up
And I'll mumble something dumb
when I mean: this is my life
And I love it and I love you now
I want to be next to you
And I am next to you
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6. |
A Message from Grant
02:16
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7. |
Free Time
03:02
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Graduate in the springtime
Take two months study for the bar
When you're done, go to Europe
Get away, good so far
Come back home, New York City
When September rolls around
Two more months now until I'm working I
Oh November, please come now
Cause the free time and the me time
It was fun for a while but now it's not
And if something came from doing nothing
I'd be worth a lot
Write a novel, hell, I did that
No one read it, waste of time
Make some waffles,
Chat on reddit, wait in lines
Make a phone call to my mother
Tell she tells me she has to go
Visit old apartments,
then another
Oh, god anything to get out of this home
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You've gotta roll with the punches
And all the other kids, eat all their lunches
And if they fall down then fuck 'em
Let 'em fall and beat 'em with their crutches
No, my friend, it's not time for friends now
Cause you're a fox in the henhouse
And if you ever want to rest someday
Well then, I guess you've gotta be the best
And everybody else is in the way
The eye of the tiger again
To win you've gotta screw over your friends
And if you're gonna play and you're not gonna win
You might as well just crawl into the dirt again
That's what I've learned
Oh aren't you glad that you met me?
It happened 'cause I know what you'll get me
and if you fall into a bad place
ill let you drown and throw rocks at your face
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Here We Are
04:36
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It's been a long work week
You've barely even gotten any sleep, you're tired
But it's Friday night
and you want to blow off some steam, you're wired
I've been waiting at home 'til you're done
And I'm ready to do anything you want to
And you say you don't care, but I know that's not true
Help me out, just tell me what you wanna do
We could go out, we could downtown, to that place
that serves fried chicken and champagne
Or we could stay at home, order in
We could go to bed at ten, we don't have to do a damn thing
Boo, do you want to see a movie, truly,
Tonight I want to do you things
We could hit a club, that's something we've never done
Or we could just get drunk at home, that could be fun
Huh?
Baby we've got a little time, yeah, we've got the whole night
so tell me what you wanna do
I know you want to entertain me and I want the same thing
So tell me what you wanna do
Cause if we don't make plans now
We'll eat take out and we'll pass out
That's cool if it's cool with you
But if not help me out please, tell me what you wanna do
I take your silence as rejection
And keep trying until you shake your head yes
Because I don't know what you're feeling
But every single idea you seem to not be impressed
Hold up - we could go to MOMA. No? Alright
We could go shopping in Soho,
We could to Harlem and finally get the ramen we've been talking about
Head back home and watch Blacklist until we pass out
Wait, we don't have to stay in this place,
We could get a zip car, we could drive up the Hudson
We don't even have to stay in the state,
We could take 95 head right up to Boston
After all we got friends that we wanted to visit
We could call them on the way, it's not too late, is it?
It is, and it doesn't really matter what the plans are
So you're heading home now and I'll see you in a minute
It get it
I'm the one that's making this hard when it isn't
I'm probably just projecting
I do the same thing, pretending that I don't have a preference
It's not fair to depend on you when I know you're just trying to do whatever I wanna do
I know it doesn't help us pick a place to eat, but thank you for being so sweet
I wrote my first verse in the fall of 99
Twelve years old, baggy clothes, saying "tight"
And I never would imagine this would end up as my life
Only seven months till we're husband and wife
Waiting for you to come home on Halloween night
Been a long week so we'll probably play it quiet
Start work next week and it's just about time
Got my suits all ironed and my shoes all shined
So this weekend I just want to enjoy being with you
Haiyun, this is our life and it's pretty all right
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