September of my 27th year, is it now, did I do it, am I finally here?
In a brownstone townhouse on the upper west side
In a roofdeck duplex with the love of my life
I start work in about a month at a big law firm with a real income
I'm very happy I can settle down,
and do some wedding planning on the weekends now
But there's a part of me that's not quite sold
There's a voice in the back saying, "Grant, you got old"
It's been saying the same thing for half of my life
But days pass and it sounds more right each time 'cause
when I look back on my too-brief youth
There's no jumps in pools from on top of the roof
No parties popped off with my parents out of town
And no running from the cops when they shut us down
And in the morning with a pounding head,
didn't wake to strange faces on the other side of bed
I made mostly good decisions for most of my life
And now I'm finally the old guy that I've acted like
Yeah, but now I think I really don't mind
Cause I'm sick of being scared of the passage of time
Right now I'm older than I've ever been
But I'm younger than I'll ever be again, and

If that's what you complain about
then it might not ever change
No, your life won't stay the same
It'll just get better in a different way (if you act your age)

I used to want be a rapper,
Now I'm glad it didn't happen, 'cause crafting another grant would be a hassle
And it's taken so long to be glad with the one I have
That I can't second guess and I can't look back
Cause I don't mind that the kids like music that I don't really understand
And on the lower east side at night I feel like a chaperone at a middle school dance
So i'ma spend the weekends in my worn out vans
Until I go to work in dress shirts and pants
Stop calling myself a kid like a pop punk band
Cause if I go to bed at ten I'm an adult man and
This is what I'm hoping:
To lose the self loathing and get a sense of self that's closer to those who know me
instead of focused on the old me
And finally get control of the adult life that I'm holding
I used to hope that I would be something
Some kind of loft-living artist with a lip piercing
Now I don't want the same things from back when I was a teen
And that's really really really really not a bad thing

I got friends who got married
I got friends who got kids
I got friends who got neither
Because they just wanna live
I'm about to get married
I got plans to have kids
And I'm so excited for both of those
Because I just wanna live